THE SMOKE

gave up, to free my soul

but it lurks inside, liks its lone goal

may be im addicted ,to its trance

the smoke mimics ,but a deadly dance

my hazy mind ,chained inside

my moods swings ,lik the oceans tide

freedom from good ,give in to devils hold

did i wish for evil?,i wud shape in satans mould

this is not wat i want ,even in lifes drill

god gives paradise ,so i submit to his godly will

life is a trial, i scored high

no more complains, no more sigh

it hurts to stop covettin the material

but truth comprehends wat i touch is meta-real

THE SMOKE

gave up, to free my soul
but it lurks inside, liks its lone goal
may be im addicted ,to its trance
the smoke mimics ,but a deadly dance
my hazy mind ,chained inside
my moods swings ,lik the oceans tide
freedom from good ,give in to devils hold
did i wish for evil?,i wud shape in satans mould
this is not wat i want ,even in lifes drill
god gives paradise ,so i submit to his godly will
life is a trial, i scored high
no more complains, no more sigh
it hurts to stop covettin the material
but truth comprehends wat i touch is meta-real

HALLOW OF THE HEAVENS

i can see the heavens
behind the clouds,
there hallow soothes me
even if beneath shrouds.
crimson red
stretches across the skies,
turning in to dead dark as time flies.

i wish you were here

i wish you were here
as the rain beats on the ground
to watch the horizon
as the wet sun goes down
driving a nostalgic journey
down memory lane
the wind rushes through the leaves
picking the dust on the path
as time traces a wonder on its weaves

hold on tight

some times i think i would fall..
fall back into its depths..
again
searching for a grip to hold on to..
often waking up
from that dreaded nightmare...
the jerk stunting my breath..
the blood rushing tru the brain

but i wont let go..
i wont fall
even wit out a grip
my grip is my tot
my belife
my roots...
my saviour
i will not forget ..
never again

HAZED

i run to limp
i walk to fall
i let go to hold back
memories of walking tall
i think to be free
i shroud to be warm
searching for spaces of twilight
as blindness crawls
life moves on
the rain stops to show clear skies
memories flood into the mind
as time flies
through the passage of time
write your lives
throwing away the shrouding blinds
it has to rain to clear the skies
it has to be let gone
to strengthen the ties
tears have to be shed
to bring back the smiles
i hav to let go before its mine
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....wHat was i thinkinG tHen????

FRAGMENTS

fragments of land
will lie together
beautiful scapes
and the exotic smell
in the life of life
in life it will be
always in its bliss
the thought of it
will always make
it better a bit
than yesterday
and tomorro
will come and kill sorrow
for you and me
wait for that day
when life will
be at birth and bay
and it will be possible
for it is we
who make the impossible be
and win
love for that is always true
no matter what
others say.....

2001

no matter how much i try
no matter how hard i strive
i cant cry
these two drops are my tears
which do not flow in par with my fears
i feel the pain sweeping my soul
pain strong and frightening
enough for me to drop down
dead cold
i dont live life's frenzy
thus escaping the real to me ,
sounds easys
elling my soul is too much a price
i shout but i am not heard
i try to move buti am paralysed
i try to hear but
nothing sounds
i wake up breaking
my earthly bounds.

sulken eyes

sulken eyes from 15.3.2001!!!!!
91 days ago

those sulekn eyes
so much in them
that you can feel
but so much in them
that they conceal
those batting lashes
of concern
my heart i feel it burn
those sulken eyes
that are sleep deprived
i felt so much that i cried
i met them fora second or two
i could see that
deep blue
so much in them
they are deep
i dont know how much
they tend to keep

THE TOUCH OF THE LONE

the touch of the lone


if its the question of trials
that stand across
the once won,
the ones lost.
the search never ends
at those trivial bends
born alone dead one day
ones own -ones fey.

FIND IT

find it


find it in the day break
foever young
never fake
find it in the depths of the sea
an oyster
that was never meant to be
find it in essence of your soul
bless it
before u live on a dole.

NO ONES SPECIAL

no ones special

Im no one’s special
no no ones dream
No ones love
No ones scream
Im no one’s special
I liv to no ones care
No ones good will
I liv to my own dare
Im no one’s special
I look in to the eye ..
And search for a tear
Wipe it away and wait till its clear
Im no one’s special
A stand by for changes
A passer by